I hate the fact that I'm in love and I'm crushing on someone else. I'm scared that that crush will turn into infatuation. WHAT THE FUCK WILL I DO THEN?? I don't want to like the other person, I really don't. I want them as my friend but just as that. Nothing else. NOTHING ELSE.

We talked about masturbation and then he said he didn't want to die a virgin and I told him that if I wasn't married and single by the age of 25 that I'd help him out. Why the fuck did I do that?? I have a fucking boyfriend who I love very much and never want to lose. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm fucking crazy.

Help.