I feel like Crap... [ mood | angry ] I have think that this journal will be my bithcing/writing journal. Lol. I mean I can't really write anything that personal in Sarahilicious because I have sum school friends there. And yeah. I don't know why but today I feel like shit...I feel the need to starve myself and just die on the floor staring up at a pair of blueis greenish eyes. I suck at writing I got a review and yeah that is one piece of why I feel like shit. Lol I know im stupid for getting all sad and stuff but well only a lil cuz yeah but hopefully I get better. I will thank him/her though because they want me to get better. I hate to admit it but another reason why is because Jonathan said he was going to call me and he didn't. That is why I got tired of being his g/f! NO MORE COMMUNICATION!! We hardly talked and I got sad and tired of waiting for his fucking phone call! I know I talk with him in IM but well I want to hear his voice too you know? and I get tired of typing long crap that I want to tell him. It is sooo much easier telling him in person. Heck the other day I wanted to tell him 'I love you' because I wanted to but then the urge died and I didn't tell him. I feel like if im permanantly dying now and I won't go back to loving him as more than a friend. Another reason why I feel like that is because on tuesday I got out early and my mom picked me up. Here is our convo on our way home. Me: Mom the first 100 people to buy a yearbook only pay 70$ then the rest have to pay a much more high price.. Mom: -silence- Why do you want that yearbook anyways? you have your 10th grade one and I don't see you using it... Me: -silenced- Well it's my senior year and I want it... Mom: Sarahi! I don't have money to buy that...tell your dad.... Me: But my dad doesn't even call us....I haven't talked to him in a long itme.. -tears start forming- Mom: Well then I don't know but tell him to give you the money...I don't have money to buy that.. Me: >.< Mom: Do you even come out in that book?? Me: OO Yes! I come out in the yearbook that is why I want to buy it! Mom: -sighs- Well we will see if you can buy it..but still tell your dad. I hate when this happens! I hate my parents being split! I hate it! Its so stupid and gay! Why can't I just have a normal fucking family?? Why does she always say 'TELL YOUR DAD TO BUY IT FOR YOU??' And she said that she was going to buy me/waste whatever money on senior year for me. hmpfh! Some great senior year if she is going to be like that the whole freaking year!
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